I'm okay

There used to be a saying that Gemini have split personalities however I always doubt about it but now, I choose to believe that its true. Sometimes I find myself weird too, I have serious period mood swing, easily happy, easily sad, am I the only one or am I way too easily affected by everything. Maybe I'm too weak, maybe I act too strong, deep inside, its killing me, every single second. I feel so tired, that I have to put on a smile and act like nothing is tearing it down, I feel like a liar to deceive others. I feel like a loser to realized that in your eyes I'm such person, maybe I'm too much but I did not realized it, but you were assuming, that's all can say. I wonder why at that moment of time why did I pause, why didn't I tell what was in my mind, why did I hesitant & feel breathless. All I do is hide and I will not stop doing it, I shall just ease my pain & set myself free, build a wall against my fragile heart & tell myself maybe its time to give on on something which don't belong to me. Since I'm treating it badly, it should not belong to me either, at the end of day, all i can do from now on wards is hide my real feeling for as I have no rights to say how to feel so show what's in my mind. Numb me & pull me down to the deepest land so that i will never have to feel that pain of falling so hard. My tears tells it all. 

Way to make a girl special

1. Regularly express to her that you need and value her.
2. Do things that make you laugh together.
3. Compliment her for her special qualities and be specific.
4. Put your arms around her when she needs comfort.
5. Speak respectfully, don’t demean her or hurt her feelings.
6. Give her time to be with her friends.
7. Take regular walks hand-in-hand.
8. Be enthusiastic over things that she’s excited about.
9. Do something you think she wants done before she asks.
10. Discuss changes with her first before you make them.
11. Show interest in the relationship and the things she values.
12. Allow her to teach you things without being defensive.
13. Let go of the small stuff.
14. Be a good listener and value what she says.
15. Get away from the routine to spend time together.
16. Go shopping with her without watching the clock.
17. Make her breakfast and clean up afterward.
18. Set specific relationship goals to achieve together.
19. Act like you are partners in all areas life.
20. Don’t take her for granted, always be polite. 
21. Admit your mistakes, and ask for forgiveness.
22. Defend her to others, especially to your family.
23. Don’t belittle her intelligence.
24. Scratch her back, rub her feet, and massage her neck.
25. Be especially helpful when she is not feeling well.
26. When she asks how your day went, give her details.
27. Never argue over money, it will damage your relationship.
28. Don’t embarrass her in front of others.
29. Make eye contact when the two of you are talking.
30. Show that you prefer her company over all others.
31. Give her your full attention whenever possible.
32. When she expresses her feelings listen with your heart.
33. Never flirt with another woman.
34. Brag about her and your relationship to others.
35. Surprise her with a card and flowers.
36. Call her when you know you are going to be late.
37. Give her your undivided attention when she’s talking.
38. Never compare her unfavorably with others.
39. Take care of yourself, It shows you care.
40. Be supportive. Help her to achieve her goals.
41. Run errands without complaining.
42. Sit close to her, even when you’re just watching TV.
43. Include her when you make plans.
44. Do things that make her feel cherished as a woman.
45. Build trust into your relationship.
46. Surprise her with a 15+ second kiss.
47. Stay in good of shape so she’s proud to be with you.
48. Be kinder to her than you are to strangers.
49. Make sure she feels valued above everyone else.
50. Continue to court her and date her.
51. Show affection for her in front of friends.
52. Hold her close when she is hurt or discouraged.
53. Surprise her with an unexpected gift.
54. Don’t forget to hold her hand in public.
55. Honor her and support her dignity.
56. Don’t dishonor her by eyeballing other women.
57. Fix dinner for her sometimes.
58. Be sympathetic when she’s feeling down.
59. Don’t ignore the small things that bother her.
60. Do things around the house that she wants done.
61. Tell her and show her that you love her every day.
62. When you’re away call or email often.
63. Show her affection without sexual intentions.
64. Show her affection with sexual intentions.

But.. the simpiest is love her with all your heart & for sure she will love you even more :)

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MY little helmet

I kinda miss having Bangs !
that little helmet which will give me clear vision,
right now, side fringe is giving me a One eye Monster look
& I seriously hate it ! :< be it in photo or working or talking to others.
But with my FAT FACE now, bangs will make me look like
a fatty fishball face, oh well, still thinking about it, hmmm...
BUT ONE THING FOR SURE! DIE DIE MUST AND WANT (!)
I WANNA DYE MY HAIR RED ! RED WINE, SO SMEXY !
P.S Ignore my stupid faces hahahs !

Rainbow Cupcake

Hey readers! This is a overdue post which I saved as draft for so so so long, oppsy!  

Can't wait to blog about this because It my first time baking Rainbow cupcakes and it was a success! I welcome anyone to ask me for the recipe ! Love to bake and  happy to share it with everyone, I'm just a beginner in baking though ! :) Here goes the process of making Rainbow cupcake ! :D Hope that you will try it out soon ! :) 

First, prepare the plain batter for the cupcake, before adding colouring to create colourful batter. I must must must must say that, making this batter is freaking easy, don't worry about the long list of ingredients of those troublesome steps! Just go to any supermarket, under the baking corner, there will be boxes of pre-mix packing, easily spotted ! Normally I will get betty crocker super moist white because it's the only available choice there, though I don't want to super moist but I can say this is the only white cake mix,  it must be white ! so that when you add the colouring it will not affect the colours ! :D Behind the box will have steps and ingredient! just follow the steps, easy !  Follow the step to get the batter then divide the batter into 6 cups or less depending on how many colour you want for your cupcake ! :D hahahhas ! there goes! 

It's really affordable and by using 1 box of mix, it will give you roughly 12 cupcakes? i forget :x 

Then add colouring into the batter, just a small portion, if you want it very outstanding and bright, add more colouring if not just a bit will do because colouring is unhealthy ! I heard that supermarkets sells food colourings! Well, I got mine at red man, a shop that sells all baking materials and tools ! Slowly add in the colouring and stir it into your batter consistently !

 ta-dar! colourful batter ! almost done, all you need to do is put in layer by layer of colours in the baking tray and wait for your nice colourful cupcake to be done ! so we did with small cupcakes first to test with the colours ! Praying that it will be bright and nice :D here goes, 15-20 mins i guess? I forget the duration and temperature but the box will state the duration and temperature :)! 

Ignore my cui face, look at the batter ! already layer it with different colour, the colour of the batter will like lighter before baking but after baking the colour will be awesome! Look below :D 

The colour will eventually became darker and more striking when it's done ! awesome! totally excited to see the result, hoping that the colour will look nice so we open up the cupcake and ............

This is what we saw :D 

Looks nice right ! I was totally freaking happy with my cupcakes ! totally look so cute with just 2 colours mixing together ! :) the red and green look like watermelon ! I love the result ! Jumping with excitement, totally forget that the main thing was rainbow cupcakes, hahhahas! At that point of time, my family members and I was busy eating those small yet colourful mini cupcake already, nom nom nom ! 

Honestly, its super tired making rainbow cupcake because of it colours, got to spoon in different colours layer by layer for just 1 cupcake. So imagine making 12 cupcakes OR MORE! 12 times 6, 72 times of spooning actions into the baking tray, yet have to be careful each time, must maintain each scope of colour making sure that its the same amount so that the colours will look even and have to make sure it does not mix with others colours if not the colours will mix with one another which will totally spoil the colourful layer effect ! so in the oven it goes, watching it puff up with a very nice bright red on top ! Looks nice ! 

IN THE END WHEN ITS OUT OF OVEN IT BECAME LIKE THAT :( 

The top part cracked ! Either the oven was too hot or too much batter causing it to ' explode'?

hahas ! I have no idea too but I swear I put too much batter for each colour. Looks ugly now :( fatty cupcakes look like some mushroom now, hahahahahs ! 

Let the cupcake cool down and we finally took it out to see the result of the colour from the outside. though its quite hard to see because of the 'overflow' exploding top, so we decide to open it up to see inside :D 

TADAR! this is what it became ! rainbow cupcake was a success ! though there's lot of room of improvement but for a first timer like me, I'm happy with it ! :D 

As for the remaining batter we made into mini cupcake with 3 different colours so we don't waste the batter, indeed mini cupcake was easier to make ! hahahs ! Totally love the colours ! :D easier to eat too, just remover the cupcake liner and in my mouth it goes! 

& the reason why I made this ;D?

Made it for babyboy for our 4th monthsary ! :D teehees! 

Thanks for adding so much colours in my life ! things will never be the same without you ! 

heh heh I love how the colour stick at the side of the cupcake liner ! its so colourful :) 

Back to school !

Hey all ! It has been so long since i blog :D! Real lazy and busy! Of course not busy dating 24/7 but due to school ! I'm glad that I am back to school ! Like finally ! This time round can't screw the diploma already ! All my ex  classmates have already started on degree but here I am back to diploma ! Cannot afford to fail this time, must really put in effort in my studies and focus by not working outside but only at Granny shop :) Not only that, another piece of good new, to me, is that ... * ROLL DRUM*... I'm in the same class as Jiazhen, a mad friend of mine since primary school !  Heh heh ! its totally a good news to me ! No one wanna go school alone, right? especially first day of school, everyone is like a stranger to you. Frankly, i dislike private school, I still miss Secondary school.  I used to complain why we wear school uniform to school unlike poly students, they get to wear home clothes presenting their fashion sense, i take back my words!  School uniform is so much better ! hmmm.. maybe its really because I have poor fashion sense? hahhas  Everyone judge to make friends and I really hate it, I don't wanna go though this stage anymore, being like a stranger, then awkward moments after introducing ? then silents between new friends then slowly bond and then became friends, oh my I don't like that ! :< & there's this bitch that I hate in my class ! Because she talk behind my back yet I heard it, obviously because of my looks ! lazy to explain either, ruin my mood! anti such people who judge ! of course not just that ! she just irritates me in all way especially in group discussion! I hate myself for having stage fright if not I sure voice out my thinking which is so much better than her ! argh ! better go find a way to cure stage fright ! -.- Alright just a short post about school ! I always have something to blog but when i wanna blog about it, I forget what I wanted to blog ! teehees ! Kinda getting forgetful easily ><" that's bad ! 

GIRLFRIENDS

HOHOHOH! I so need to blog about this, because this is the first time going blading with girlfriends and babyboy @ East Coast park! :D :D Totally an awesome experience, dying to skate with them again ! But hopefully next time round, both Shiqi and Marissa will not scream so much, laugh so loud and fall on their butt like free flood, laughs! Lucky us, that the weather was windy because according to forecast there might be stormy rain or thunder storm rain during evening timing. Lucky us again, or should I say me ? Because bboy was willingly to go east coast park to blade with us which also to means that he can fetch us and that we don't have to waste time taking transport & finding our way there ;x! All thanks to work ending so late, when we reach ECP, it was already 7pm! the girls went to rent their skate while bboy and me wore our own skate and off we go ! P.S though I have my own blades but I'm a noob! hahas! while bboy is a pro, laughing at me being slow. To think back now,Bboy is right, should have taken a video of Marissa and shiqi blading, Marissa was like a bird, swinging her arms like flying, flipping its wing, while shiqi, scares herself by thinking she's going to fall moving front & back and a rapid movement, imagine that :X cute little beginners! I so can't wait to blade with them again ! So sad that Mac closed down or should I say shifted ?? the new mac at the seafood side ? totally DISLIKE ! no air con and no blading lane, so lousy ! :x ok that's a bit random ! but I still must complain in on my blog ! 

GIRLFRIENDS

Thanks for always having fun with me! Be it shopping, eating or camwhore! I Always enjoy myself ! :D All this will still be happening in my future too, we must stick together for life, I wanna be your child/children's godma! lol! thinking abit too much ! Just hope that our friendship never ends!  Make me lose weight ! :x But don't ask me to run I don't like to run ♥ 

I'm lost

yayness, got 3 new post to blog about, soon, hopefully I got the time to. 

Feeling so lost now, life is full of regrets and mistakes, was it a mistake 

to not listen to others and know you, after all, I'm just a Toy to you, 

eventually now, though I'm regretting I such hold on a mindset to believe 

that, is not worth it to let go. But what for ? I feel so stupid, because I'm 

just way to soft hearted, I should have walk out of it then to stand there 

and be like a back up plan, I have no idea what to say, just feel so lost. 

Why is life so hard, yet I am never strong. Why don't I do things that I 

know is good for me ? Forever a big question mark in life, will things be 

different if I took a left turn instead of a right turn ? Can someone ans me? 

4th monthsary

I MISS MY BOY, SO MUCH.

Have not seen him for days and that kills, but life still have to go on, right? 

Though I keep grumbling and whining but still have to patiently wait till 12 days 

to be over so that I can see him  ! :<  In case, you guys are wonder why 12 days, 

where is he, why can't we meet :D? hahahas! One word, due to W-O-R-K ~ 

No work no money, basic rule in life, no money no life , consequences for not working :) 

He's working in IT Fair for 4 days while I'm working in my Granny shop  as usual.

Straight after 4 days, Godma is going Malaysia for church camp so I am stay put 

in my Granny shop to help out till mum is back which is 8 days later. However 4 

days later I need to go back to school so, I forced myself to work for 4 more days 

for that extra allowance for myself :( If not when school starts I will have lesser time 

to work, by the time, I sure no money, what a sad news ! pathetic life. 

Well well, just have to get used to life like that, I'm way too attached to bboy, 

is that good or bad :/ ?

Babyboy, you are my gummy bears ♥
Being colourful, always adding colours to my life.
Being big and round enough for me to hug, 
being soft and gentleman enough to give in forever,
being sweet and caring by never leaving me alone. 
You never fail to cheer me up and feed me fat, thanks babyboy for 
being the best,  i love you ! Happy 4th monthsary ! :D

xxx

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